How do you keep yourself posting even if you aren't seeing the biggest return on investment? 
With YouTube, that's a great question. I used to see possibility of monetization, but recently YT changed their policy on that and it seems utterly hopeless. I also get a creeping suspicion that they repress anything related to LBGTQ+ topics. Kir Paints Pitchers used to be a routine, but I took a break for January. I made a whole new format for the program with three different rotating themes and better features. I think I'll pick it back up again soon, but I'm not sure. It’s not even that I’ll never get paid for it, I’ve gotten like three peoples feedback after 30 15-30 minute episodes. I’m sure small YouTubers do that all the time, and it’d be dumb of me to complain about it, but I honestly can’t discern whether it’s worth my time or not.

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Anything you doing on the side?

Currently instead of filming more, I’m finishing up a fiction book I started writing last year. It's been weighing on me and I just want to release it, record an audiobook, and be done with it. It's another instance of feeling guilty for wasting so much energy on things that will yield nothing (or maybe they’ll yield everything, it’s literally the lottery.) It's all even more frustrating because I genuinely enjoy making a show like KPP or writing this book, or anything that I actually want to do.

"I never get upset.

Nothing happens with these things,

in the end I make it all for myself"

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Anything you want to say to the 2 people probably reading this?    

Haha, two people, I think we might be on a similar wavelength. I want to give encouragement to people who are fans of art and music to get into that local pocket more. Not even just geographically either. I feel like a local Internet is a thing, like the tribe of people you really enjoy following. Support the artists, musicians, writers, and curators there, be a part of that scene whether it’s IRL or virtual.

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What do you think about consumer culture?

Consumer culture has always been this thing where the famous people making content are way at the top, unreachable and possibly manufactured/goaded on by suits. But now, especially with such a freedom and connectivity that the Internet and open-source software has provided, we have the ability to be our own creators for free with varying levels of visibility. In this new reality, money is still real, vocal validation is still real, sharing is still real--just as it is/was for the possibly antiquated model of celebrities being nation-wide god figures collecting big checks. I am clearly a little too biased and embarrassingly distressed, but I think it makes sense that supporting your creative friends is a much better option than supporting artists who have basically transformed into large brands, dishing out art to fans that isn’t even made by them. That’s an age old theme and point of contention, but I feel like the rise of small scenes actually provides an answer.